staypozitive:

• Whatever you do, don’t just show up at their house…they run around in their underwear just like we do.
• Don’t cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out. 
• Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn’t even wait for the dang hat.
• Never miss an opportunity to tell them they’re beautiful.
• Don’t refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it’s because they’re jealous.
• If they slap you hard, you deserved it. 
• Don’t be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they’re going out with you in the first place, it’s because they like being in your arms.
• Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales. 
• Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time! 
• Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it’s not a serious relationship.
• Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you’re dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren’t dropping her off, call to be sure she’s home safely.
• If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the you know what out of him. Maybe not literally, but do what it takes to make it stop.
• If you’re talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.
• Never, ever slap her, even if it’s just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, “Oh, you’re so dumb” or something, never make any gestures back. 
• Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn’t care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.
• You’re dead meat if you can’t get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals. 
• Don’t flirt with their moms…that’s just freaky.
• If you don’t like the way they drive, you do it.
• If you’re officially dating, and you’re introducing her to your friends, you better be introducing her as your girlfriend. 
• Don’t stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.
• If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.
• Girls are fragile. Even if you’re play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.
• Memorize their birthdays for goodness sakes. You forget her birthday and you’re basically screwed for life. 
• Don’t marinade the cologne, but smell good.
• Don’t give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine’s day. It doesn’t have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. 
• If you think the relationship isn’t going to last, don’t wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out. 
• After you’ve been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

People are shit. Life is shit. The world is shit. I hate just about everything. kcool.

Please, for the love of the God that you worship, shut the fuck up.

I don’t know why. For some reason unbeknownst to me, it just calms me. It’s soothing. It’s like listening to light classical music while you lay to sleep, or listening to a soft voice tell a bedtime story. It’s somewhat of a trance of some sort. It makes me happy, to know that you’re fast asleep and not dealing with the stresses of every day life that you have. I genuinely relish when I am given such moments. I’ll probably be that weird person that will be able to just lay with you, watching as your chest moves up and down with breaths. Creepy and somewhat perverted sounding, I know, but that’s not what I’m getting at. It’s just.. I don’t know. Bliss, I suppose, to be able to share moments such as that.

I hate going out, which doing so had my blood pressure a little up.

My mother proceeded to bitch me out after asking people to explain things for me so that I could better understand them, because I’m not the brightest one around. That’s really fucking surprising. I have zero common sense.

She then proceeded to bitch me out some more when we were discussing arrangements for tomorrow, and I misunderstood something. Once again, being made out to feel stupid.

I was actually eager to come home and talk about my day, but happened to be told unfortunate news, and feel bad about it because it’s just bad news in general. I have enough heart to fee a little sorry. That pretty much killed my whole mood.

I then started to force myself into a better mood, before it coming back down upon reading what I assumed/made out to be sarcasm, which just pissed me off.

Idk. I’m not pointing any fingers though. Just ranting a little.

PS; I broke my styrofoam cup because I was furious and acted on impulse. Oops.

Because no matter what, I always end up fucking something up.

I honestly don’t know if you realise just what you’re getting yourself into. I don’t think you have ever stopped to think about who exactly you’re giving your life to. Who you’re willing to do such things for.

In reality, I’m just a nobody from Oklahoma, United States. I don’t have anything to my name, or anything that I’ve done great in my lifetime while here. I don’t have a lot of friends or know a lot of people. I don’t have strong connections or even know what to do when I need to do something. I’ve never really been outside of my state, or really my town, but maybe half a dozen times. I’m always bound down from doing luxurious things because of finances and a lack of transpiration.

My family is so dysfunctional, I don’t even know how I’m managed to keep myself sane through the years. One side is full of religious freaks that most likely will judge us because of our choices in life. The other.. well. I’ll just say that it’s the South. I don’t know how to say it other than they’re a bunch of rednecks; country music, four-wheelers in the mud, bonfires, and the such. Everything except for what you find in Arkansas.

I can’t give you much in life, other than what I have right now. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I sometimes worry about what your opinion of everything will be. It’s going to be way different than England, I can tell you that. People will pass comment because you sound different to them and do things differently than them. Believe me, though.. everyone gets the same treatment.

Family will be family, no matter blood or water. You just have to stick around. I found that out the hard way, and am just now realising how stupid I was for the things that I did in the past. I just hope that I’m doing the right thing by redeeming myself. Not just for me, but for the sake of others. I’ll do whatever I can in the time that I have to make things as best as they can be for things to come. There can either be good from it, or bad. We can only know by finding out.

Like I said, I can’t give you much. I don’t know how to do many things. I’m not the brightest one around. I can just hope and try my best with everything, because in the end, nothing really matters if you’re truly happy.